Tuesday, August 01, 2006
torn between two chorva
I took the courage to take my chorva aside to take advantage of a better paying job in the business capital of the country. Yep. I am now one of those graveyard people. I only had two days of the training program and yet I am liking this one more than what I have studied for four years. I mean, this job is close to what really interests me since I was in high school. Compensation and benefits are okay so far. The people are nice and has same interests as mine. They say I am lucky to have a job in a short period while most of my batchmates wait for the result and their license to be released and jobless as of the moment.
On the other hand, I envy my friends who are really determined to practice the degree as soon as possible. They can't wait to set their feet on magnet hospitals, clinics and, if financial resources permit, NCLEX. Why can't I be like them? I mean, why do I still have hesitations of doing those stuffs for real? I know, I've been a bad student. I habitually absent if not excuse myself from duty hours and even lectures! If there's a chance for me to get out of the classroom, I always seize that opportunity. I rarely read books, though I have them on my shelf. I rarely listen to class discussions because I wll always find a way to take the corner seat and sleep. Amidst all, I passed anyway. And I know I can do it right when I am there. But... the drive is not enough.
I don't want that four-year education go to waste however I don't have the drive to practice it. Sigh.
On the other hand, I envy my friends who are really determined to practice the degree as soon as possible. They can't wait to set their feet on magnet hospitals, clinics and, if financial resources permit, NCLEX. Why can't I be like them? I mean, why do I still have hesitations of doing those stuffs for real? I know, I've been a bad student. I habitually absent if not excuse myself from duty hours and even lectures! If there's a chance for me to get out of the classroom, I always seize that opportunity. I rarely read books, though I have them on my shelf. I rarely listen to class discussions because I wll always find a way to take the corner seat and sleep. Amidst all, I passed anyway. And I know I can do it right when I am there. But... the drive is not enough.
I don't want that four-year education go to waste however I don't have the drive to practice it. Sigh.
